I tried my best…

I read the email… I thought I had it in the bag. The resources were supplied… I read them over and over again… It almost became like a nursery rhyme in my head… In my mind, I could see past the finish line… Yes, me holding that trophy standing on the podium…

Reality hit different… Oh, so very different. The days leading up to it were unbearable… So many anxiety attacks… I couldn’t understand why and where these came from… Why am I so restless, heavy and out of breath? I’ve crossed the t’s and dotted the I’s like they say…. But just to be safe… I’ll browse online for more research… Now I think I stand a good chance…

‘D’ day and I’m singing a victory tune in my head… Why? Because I believed I would smash it. “Good afternoon… ” I could hear myself pause ever so often… The glass of water trick didn’t seem to work… Instead, it made me look like I was leaking lol… It wasn’t going as planned… Where did they get all these strange questions from? Was I in the wrong room with the wrong people? I mumbled some more… Something in me felt I disappointed quite a few people… Those who believed in me enough to give me a slot… Those who tried not to cringe through the session… And myself…

Never again would I boast in myself… Believing I got it all… Today I was humbled… Yes, thrown back to reality with a loud thud! My confidence should never be in my ability but in the one who gives the stability…

Either way, I get a response… And either way, I learnt a lesson today. I have a lot to learn…

Hallo what??

Hello everyone!

I wanted to put a post up for Halloween but life kinda took over and that slipped to number 499 on my list of things to do lol…

When I say “life” I mean all the grown-up stuff I wish someone else handled (notice I didn’t say ‘I wish I never had?’ haha… Sometimes these responsibilities are a good thing but for someone else *side eye*) and all I need to do is sign at the bottom to “approve” all haha…

Yes, so back to Halloween. I guess this year it’s going to be errr ‘slightly’ different… Well, for one we can’t have random strangers touching our doorbells… We ain’t got enough sanitisers to go round the neighbourhood lol. Two… How are you going to socially distance yourself when filling up their little buckets with sweets? Yes, they’re all in masks already (pun intended lol) but I’d rather you keep walking hehe… Mean, I know. Anyways, as I try to imagine the noise and over plug of all things dark and ghostly… Here’s a flashback to a few years ago when we knew little to nothing about washing hands for at least 20 secs… Enjoy! 

It’s late 2010’s or something in that radius lol, can’t remember with 2020 and all… My neighbourhood was a mix between sounding like a malfunctioning exhaust and looking like “frozen” on a budget *rolls eyes”. The kids, grown-ups, and fireworks just aren’t my thing anymore. Maybe because I now have a fear of eating too much sugar (thanks mum) so no sweets -Well, a few Haribos, wine gums here and there don’t count right? Well, I need it for my stress levels, it calms me lol…

And those cute buckets and large bags the kids carry around from door to door demanding sweets lol (sometimes I wonder if their parents moonlight as bank robbers we see in the movies with extra-large white sacks with ‘$’ signs – just saying lol)

Thinking out loud… I’d like a bag pls, but only for hard currencies- Preferably Notes, nothing in loose change. Thanks… 

Bottoms up… Lol

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Dreams to reality… Let’s do this!

Such a long title I know lol but it pretty much sums up where I am ATM… These dreams need to become reality… Yes honey – cheers to the good life *sprinkles champagne confetti*

Before I begin… let me throw a disclaimer out there real quick haha… This is my way, not THE way…

Back to it… We all have big dreams that seem… well too big to accomplish… But that’s just fear screaming out loud, not our potential. I believe once we can “dream” it, we can achieve it… A lot of the big brands were hidden in someone’s head at one time amidst the other major worries of life like what to wear, eat or where to live haha…

So here’s my story… I’m no member of the royal family, have no ties to Amazon (haha) and don’t have a trust fund… yet. Hehe. Meaning every penny counts! Lol… I’ve nurtured a certain business idea for ages but the fear of not being able to accomplish it crippled me for a bit… Why? Well, it’s an area I have little experience in but a great passion for. So this would mean getting knowledge and experience somehow! 

First stop, get information! The internet is key here, Search engines sure are your friend. You’d be surprised at the number of free materials online (and legit too haha).  Some you pay little to nothing for courses that can be done online. (I see my ‘introvert’ pals screaming “Amen” to that lol). Next stop, NETWORK… This is relative lol… Don’t over socialize, just keep in mind the kind of business you want… Look out for social events in line with it and ‘Bobs your uncle! (Or aunty… Lol)

Another thing is to S T A R T!!  Yep, just start something, start small… Even if it’s just an idea for a company name, or writing down the vision… You’d be surprised how much you’d achieve by working on it daily or frequently… Remember the key thing is to be consistent… Most people wait to have all the resources, ideas or investments before they launch out… Question is, do we get all of that in reality…? Some may, but I’ll say build as you go… We can do this!!

Yes, yes… I’m still building… Still growing but I’m closer to my dreams than I was when it was just a thought in my head as I lay in bed many years ago…

But first, we eat… Sweet and chilli wings anyone? 

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…thanks for coming to my Ted talk lol…

Dream big, achieve bigger! 

Crazy Rich…

The weather is getting a bit erm… ‘Cozy’ on my side of the planet lol. Looks like autumn is all dressed up and ready to go! I have mentioned several times how much I love Autumn… The brown leaves… The scarves blah de blah *rolls eyes* (don’t want to bore you). But I can’t get away from the feeling of “falling in love” just before Christmas *straight face*. Yes, yes… Blame all the 90’s romantic movies I indulge in… I’m just a hopeful romantic *throws glitter to the subtle sound of Michael Buble saying something about not meeting me yet?* 

So while we are on this topic of ‘love’, here’s a flashback for you Crazy Rich Asians – The MOVIE!  Hahaha… I missed the merry celebrations when the rest of the world watched it in cinemas lol… I just never got round to it… or maybe I didn’t think I’d enjoy it this much! Little did I know I was in for a shocker!

So you can imagine my joy when it was listed as a “new” release on one of my flights…(quite apt, cos it sure was new to me!) So while the plane taxied (is there a word like that? Lol) the movie began to play… Honestly, I didn’t know what to expect… but as the film went on, I went off crying like a newborn I tell you hahaha…

It hit me so hard, the tissues couldn’t keep up! Luckily for me, it was a night flight *wipes sweat from brows* so pretty much lights out with most people knocked out after the meal… On my row, we had me on the window seat and ‘no smiling’ grandma on the aisle seat -an empty seat in between us- (she kept frowning at E V E R Y O N E on the flight… wonder why *side eye*)

This movie is a rom-com on a different level, funny but not cheeky… if that makes any sense haha… Looking back now, for sure I’d go see it again at the cinema if it was still on lol. (Side note- I’m a ‘superhero’ kind of girl first. You know, Captain America, Avengers blah blah. You get the picture? Then ‘pretty woman’ movies next)

Back to the movie lol… everyone needs a best friend like Peik Lin  (university– a place true friends are made and where life meets reality lol)… and oh… Nick… Isn’t he the ‘perfect boyfriend’… Dreamy… charming… sweet…? I could go on and on about this movie, but I’m pretty sure there are a few like me who are late to the fantastic party that’s ‘CRAZY RICH ASIANS’ lol… so go order it, it’s worth the hype…

Good thing I stuffed my laptop above lol… Probably would have flooded my keyboard with tears. So maybe yeah it was a good idea leaving it up there lol… I just kept thinking after the movie ended… “How awesome ‘movie’ romance can be..”

Well, cheers to the real-life Nicks’ out there… Singapore see you soon…*throws confetti*

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Looking out the window, I smiled as the clouds enveloped us…zzzz

Meeting O’Clock

Yes, yes… Thanks to Zoom and the rest lol, we can all have “meetings” at the click of a button *side eye*

But how can we ever forget how things were back in the day… Meetings that felt like you were being summoned lol. Especially the early Monday morning ones… *rolls eyes*. Those are the worst in my opinion because you spend the whole weekend (or most of it depending on your personality haha) reading the email/text/message/memo/subliminal tones over and over again… You know, picturing all kinds of possible (worst case) scenarios. And guess what? None of them happen haha…

So ‘Monday’ morning finally arrives… you’re one of the first ones in… partially because you couldn’t keep any breakfast down… Scratch that, lol… Food was the last thing on your mind when you got on the morning commute lol. Secondly, you want to get all the info from whoever has it before the “boss” walks in. Next, you look around to pick the “best” seat in the meeting room… Away from the camera, but close enough to see Michael’s screen… Susan arrives, then Peter…

Meeting over and the only thing on your mind is “I missed the last game of the season worrying about nothing!”  It was just an introduction to the new app for ordering lunch at the canteen! Or something as ridiculous *shakes head*  Arghhh…

Thursday lunchtime, I get an email. Hmnn… Well, this time I definitely won’t lose any sleep worrying about what could or couldn’t be… I’ll see you all Monday morning after thoroughly enjoying myself and having the time of my life…

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